OBC MANSION

Mon, 04 Apr 2005 02:25:38 GMT

Down the old staircase...I'm walking out the door. I feel lost here tonight, everything has changed since that summer before. Stumbling forward...I'm glancing back. There's no one in the window begging me to come back. The streetlights are burning. But I'm not ready for this day to be done. Cause I always come up short. I am always lusting for something more. And so I push right into the night harder and harder until my heart beats just right. Across downtown and over the tracks. Exhaustion finally taking hold...down to the place I love where nobody knows. Old photographs much too late at night. I dream of the times I wish I could leave behind. And I always Wake up ugly and dissatisfied. I've gotta change my mind. I've gotta change my life...get down to the root of the problem...cure my misdirection...cause all the laughs to die at closing time and I lie awake wondering why I'm an all or nothing kid and why I've been feeling like nothing all the time. Where do I go? Am I on my own?

Mon, 28 Feb 2005 19:54:42 GMT

NIGGA WHAT

Mon, 15 Nov 2004 22:36:26 GMT

the internet is gay.

Fri, 15 Oct 2004 14:50:27 GMT

college roolz

Wed, 12 May 2004 15:43:36 GMT

im going to see iron in wine at two different shows in nyc this summer!

and then i am going to italy!

Wed, 12 May 2004 15:40:40 GMT

iTz mY bUrFdEy!

yozels

Mon, 19 Apr 2004 15:28:08 GMT

im listening to rush 2112 and eating a hot pocket. what a start to a day.

i need to take a shower because i smell like baby.

Mon, 08 Mar 2004 19:58:08 GMT

joe's home. this rules.
last night round 1230 we went under the skyway, and it was AWESOME. we looked in concrete holes and stuff.

"you think you're so close, and step back and look where you are, and realize that you are farther away from anything you could have hoped to been close to."

i gotta stop calling her up drunk.

i gotta stop calling her.

Mon, 09 Feb 2004 19:25:21 GMT

this winter is not going well. this shit is killing everyone.

i dont have a date for valentines day.

im an idiot.

i hate the internet so much. i hate tv too. but im hopelessly addicted.

POLL

Mon, 26 Jan 2004 04:03:54 GMT

WHO WOULD WIN IN A BATTLE???

A NINJA

A VIKING

A PIRATE

AN FBI AGENT

SO FAR

GRIFFIN: NINJA
NICK: VIKING
GILBO: NINJA
DAVE: NINJA
HERBS: DITKA
CATHERINE: NINJA
CHAZ: VIKING

Fri, 23 Jan 2004 22:47:10 GMT

Mother don't worry‚ I killed the last snake that lived in the creek bed
Mother don't worry‚ I've got some money I save for the weekend
Mother remember being so stern with that girl who was with me
Mother remember the blink of an eye when I breathed through your body

So may the sunrise bring hope where it once was forgotten
Sons are like birds flying upward over the mountain

Moher I made it up from the bruise of the floor of this prison
Mother I lost it‚ all of the fear of the Lord I was given
Mother forget me now that the creek drank the cradle you sang to
Mother forgive me‚ I sold your car for the shoes that I gave you

So may the sunrise bring hope where it once was forgotten
Sons can be birds taken broken up to the mountain

Mother don't worry‚ I've got a coat and some friends on the corner
Mother don't worry‚ she's got a garden we're planting together
Mother remember the night that the dog had her pups in the pantry
Blood on the floor and the fleas on their paws
And you cried 'till the morning

So may the sunrise bring hope where it once was forgotten
Sons are like birds flying always over the mountain

Mon, 19 Jan 2004 07:13:17 GMT

here are a list of things i could never get sick of and love-

coffee
buffalo
elliott smith
chapelles show
driving down route 5
swimming at my cottage
drinking by a campfire near the lake
feeling satisfied
the feeling of being home
iron and wine
sleeping with my windows open
hugging certain girls
my friends
fishing
getting mad buzzed
sailing

here are people i need to spend more time with-

catherine
nick
steph
gilbo
mark henry
nik rolle
marti

i think i love this city more than anything. forget the naysayers. im a proud buffalonian.

A.C.

Thu, 18 Dec 2003 19:19:07 GMT

YOU KEEP A DIARY

YOU THINK YOUR LIFE'S SO IMPORTANT
YOU HAVE TO WRITE IT DOWN
YOU'RE JUST A FUCKING FAGGOT
NO ONE CARES ABOUT YOU

YOU, YOU KEEP A DIARY

YOU POMPOUS ASSHOLE DICKFACE
YOU'LL PROBABLY WRITE A BOOK
ONLY ANOTHER ASSHOLE WOULD PUBLISH IT
YOU DUMB STUPID FAG

YOU P.C. FUCKING FAGGOT
WHY DON'T YOU THROW IT AWAY
I'LL NEVER RECYCLE
THERE'S NOTHING YOU CAN SAY

RECYCLING IS GAY
RECYCLING IS GAY
RECYCLING IS GAY
RECYCLING IS GAY

MY GARBAGE CAN IS FILLED
WITH PLASTIC, CANS AND GLASS
IF YOU TELL ME TO RECYCLE
I'M GOING TO KICK YOUR ASS

RECYCLING IS GAY
RECYCLING IS GAY
RECYCLING IS GAY
RECYCLING IS GAY

I SMOKE LOTS OF CRACK AND MY GIRLFRIEND HAS A KID
I LIKE DRUGS AND CHILD ABUSE
WHEN SHE'S IN THE BATHROOM, I KICK HIM IN THE BALLS
I LIKE DRUGS AND CHILD ABUSE
WHEN SHE'S AT WORK, I TEACH HIM HOW TO SHOOT UP
I LIKE DRUGS AND CHILD ABUSE
WHEN SHE BEATS HIM UP, I SIT THERE AND LAUGH
I LIKE DRUGS AND CHILD ABUSE

WHEN HE WAS IN 3RD GRADE, HIS BEST FRIEND O.D'D
BECAUSE I MADE HIM SELL HEROIN AND SPEED
I LIKE BEATING KIDS FOR NO REASON AT ALL
I LIKE DOING DRUGS AND BEATING UP KIDS

Thu, 18 Dec 2003 17:39:16 GMT

i think i am getting progressively dumber. honestly. my dad said it cant happen, but i think it can.

my dog is cute.

everyone is a bigshot. im going to start calling them hollywood, coach holbok style.

Sat, 22 Nov 2003 00:24:10 GMT

my new icon

bioch

Tue, 18 Nov 2003 13:47:57 GMT

dont ever see malubus most wanted mmmmbniotch.

cops steal beer. "passenger! what are you trying to hide there?" "mmm just some berrrr"

listen to my radio show at 6 am til 9 am on saturday mornings!! 91.3 fm wbny.

BERRRR.

EEEEEEEEEEEEE.EEEEEEEEEEEe.EEEEEEEEEEEEe.

livejournal...i loathe you baby.

Thu, 06 Nov 2003 23:13:17 GMT

HOME ALONE BEAST ICE STYLIE!!

OH NIGGA.. TORONTO..

STOP DROP KABOOM BABY RUB ON YOUR NIPPLES

am i a horrible person?

Thu, 06 Nov 2003 03:42:33 GMT

you are the smart tard that just got slapped by his
momma.

What kind of Tard are you?
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YEAH. I THINK SO.

Wed, 22 Oct 2003 15:01:51 GMT

RIP Elliott Smith

though i never knew you and, and i was recently introduced to your music you helped me through a lot of things. you helped me identify with someone going through emotions that i thought no one else was or had gone through, you helped guide me home with your walztes on drunken nights, and you helped me sleep a little better when i fell asleep to your music.

thanks

yesterday felt like 5 years

Mon, 20 Oct 2003 04:48:24 GMT

woke up at 5. went to the radio station. didnt know how to turn on the tower properly. i was freaking out, so i called jon dalbo. he fortunately was cool about everything. my show went well. that was three hours long. from there i went to work from 10-3:30. then i went home and took a shower and layed around, and joe called me and we went to his cousins wedding reception, where i got free food. it was pretty decent food. there were thousands of puerto ricans at this wedding reception, and they were mad drunk. from there we went and saw iron and wine and jesse sykes and the thereafter. real good. i stayed up for like 22 hours. it feels like years. iiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiii

ROD STEWART

Tue, 07 Oct 2003 20:22:14 GMT

Billy left his home with a dollar in his pocket and a head full of dreams.
He said somehow, some way, it's gotta get better than this.
Patti packed her bags, left a note for her momma, she was just seventeen,
there were tears in her eyes when she kissed her little sister goodbye.

They held each other tight as they drove on through the night they were so exited.
We got just one shot of life, let's take it while we're still not afraid.
Because life is so brief and time is a thief when you're undecided.
And like a fistful of sand, it can slip right through your hands.

Young hearts be free tonight. Time is on your side,
Don't let them put you down, don't let 'em push you around,
don't let 'em ever change your point of view.

Paradise was closed so they headed for the coast in a blissful manner.
They took a tworoom apartment that was jumping ev'ry night of the week.
Happiness was found in each other's arms as expected, yeah
Billy pierced his ears, drove a pickup like a lunatic, ooh!

Young hearts be free tonight.Time is on your side,
Don't let them put you down, don't let 'em push you around,
don't let 'em ever change your point of view.

[instrumental verse]

Young hearts be free tonight.Time is on your side.

Billy wrote a letter back home to Patti's parents tryin' to explain.
He said we're both real sorry that it had to turn out this way.
But there ain't no point in talking when there's nobody list'ning so we just ran away
Patti gave birth to a ten pound baby boy, yeah!

Young hearts be free tonight, time is on your side.
Young hearts be free tonight, time is on your side.
Young hearts be free tonight, time in on your side.

Young hearts gotta run free, be free, live free
Time is on, time is on your side
Time, time, time, time is on your side
is on your side
is on your side
is on your side
Young heart be free tonight
tonight, tonight, tonight, tonight, tonight, yeah

yeah rod stewart. who wants to hang out. i havent felt this lonely in forever.

Thu, 11 Sep 2003 03:13:22 GMT

"He is my other eyes that can see above the clouds; my other ears that hear above the winds. He is the part of me that can reach out into the sea. He has told me a thousand times over that I am his reason for being; by the way he rests against my leg; by the way he thumps his tail at my smallest smile; by the way he shows his hurt when I leave without taking him. (I think it makes him sick with worry when he is not along to care for me.) When I am wrong, he is delighted to forgive. When I am angry, he clowns to make me smile. When I am happy, he is joy unbounded. When I am a fool, he ignores it. When I succeed, he brags. Without him, I am only another man. With him, I am all-powerful. He is loyalty itself. He has taught me the meaning of devotion. With him, I know a secret comfort and a private peace. He has brought me understanding where before I was ignorant. His head on my knee can heal my human hurts. His presence by my side is protection against my fears of dark and unknown things. He has promised to wait for me... whenever... wherever - in case I need him. And I expect I will - as I always have. He is just my dog." - Gene Hill

RIP Dudley. I love you.

meh.

Thu, 04 Sep 2003 04:05:39 GMT

my summer pretty much was ordinary. nothing really stood out. no one particular person stood out and came across as a better friend than before i graduated. things are pretty much the same, other than i am not in high school anymore. im pretty indifferent to things.

meh. livejournal is gay.

Sat, 30 Aug 2003 01:56:24 GMT

oh yeah and all my friends are gone

Sat, 30 Aug 2003 01:55:39 GMT

i feel like a horrible person.